rebecca1428

Help!  It’s been 2, yes 2 long weeks since my last post.  Yes I have a million reasons why but the main reason is that I have nothing to report in the weight loss department.  I am stuck, stubbornly, at 141.  This week my plan is to not do weights, but focus on cardio cardio cardio and hope I see the scale budge!!!  Otherwise, I guess I just have to be patient?  I know I’m doing all the right things…. I think!  And i’m still just 1 pound away from my next mini goal!  Damn I wish weight loss didn’t take so much time!!

Another pound gone!!!  I’m now at 141, only 1 pound to go to meet my mini goal!  One measly pound!!!!  I know I can do it now!  I can’t say how excited I was when I weighed in this morning.  In fact, I hopped off the scale so fast b/c I didn’t want the number to change!!! 

WOOHOO!!!

OK everyone I need some encouragement!  The wedding date is no longer faintly in the distance, friendly and welcoming with plenty of weight loss time in between.  The wedding date is now LOOMING just over the horizon.  I don’t have time for cheat weekends anymore!!  Here’s what happened to me:  I had my usual cheat day after my LOWEST EVER weigh in (142!!!!!  WOO HOO) and the problem is, the cheat day extended into Sunday, then Monday, and then Tuesday.  Of course, Monday and Tuesday was reduced fat wheat thins and lite cool whip all day, so I don’t know how bad that is.  On South Beach, it’s really bad b/c now I feel as if I’ve gained 5 pounds of water weight overnight - so discouraging! 

So, I managed to turn a triumphant moment into a guilt-ridden consequence.  Today, I’m on the straight and narrow.   Boot camp South Beach ever since I opened my eyes this morning.  I’m so close to my mini goal of 140 I can smell it so why am I losing it now???

Also I had a mini-meltdown Monday night because working 2 jobs and planning a wedding and trying to maintain a relationship with completely opposite hours is next to impossible.  I’ve skipped a few workouts too… that will change tomorrow morning.  On the upside, I spent 5 hours cleaning my house vigorously last night (yes, it was that messy!) and my whole body is sore, so I’m sure that counts for exercise! 

SO…. whine whine whine.  I’m pulling myself together, I’m back on track, I’m focused, I’m energetic, and I can do anything for 2 months…… right???????

WHOOOO!!!  I am sloooooow going but at least I’m going in the right direction!  Last week I was at 143.5, now 143.  I’ll take it!  I have got to stop my bad habit of sneaking in weigh-ins in between my designated day, and at different times during the day though!  I had kind of a rough week with attitude b/c a couple of times I weighed, I was up, then down, then up again (each time by less than 2 pounds, but everyone knows how that feels!  Even 1 pound in the wrong direction can be discouraging).  Anyway, this week, no cheating on that so I can bask in the glory of this new weight!  I love it when I get on the cardio machines at the gym and it asks to put in your weight, and I get to put a new weight in for the first time!!!  :)  That will be tomorrow morning. 

In other news, I got a part-time job as a server at a little family-style restaurant to help pay the wedding bills (77 days to go!!) and it’s actually fun!  I think running my ass off (literally) at this place will help me lose weight more quickly too, as long as I can avoid eating the food (HELLO chicken-fried chicken and GRAVY!!!)

Jacob and I were joking the other day about how grease and gravy are paying for our wedding :)  He said I should get that engraved on his wedding band: “This ring brought to you by… gravy”  hehe

I love him!  He’s working hard too, full time on his regular beat (he’s a cop) and also 2 part-time jobs.  We’ll make it!  Both of us are a little stressed right now, but we know it’s temporary :)  I can’t wait to get married!  But I have 8 more pounds to go first.

 Later taters!!

Hi everybody!  I had an interesting weekend!  After such a phenomenal week last week I decided to cheat on Friday AND Saturday nights.  I had 2 Bloody Mary’s, two bowls of Chex Mix (YUM) and 3 Milano cookies.  OH, and 2 mini ice cream sandwiches, all for dinner on Friday.  Saturday I cleaned up my act a little bit except for alcohol consumption and a slice of pizza.  So, even though I’m sure I haven’t undone too much progress, I’m terrified of the scale right now.  I’m back on track and won’t go near the scale till I’ve been on South Beach for at least 3 straight days.  If it goes up even a pound I’m sure I’ll be depressed, which leads to more ice cream sandwiches, and… well you get the idea!

In other news, I’m going to the doctor today to see if I am having panic attacks.  I have these episodes where I have trouble breathing and my heart pounds like it is coming out of my chest, and my thoughts start racing.  It usually only lasts a few minutes and goes away, but the breathing thing stays with me.  I never knew what it was till I was reading online about them, and sounds like what I have, except that it doesn’t seem as severe as most people report.  For instance, I don’t feel as if I’m going to die or go crazy.  But I do feel very uncomfortable and frustrated, even angry during these episodes.  And I have a hard time steering my thoughts away from a particular worry or negative image.

It’s very distressing!  I slept almost not at all last night!  But good news is that I’m going to the doctor today to see if this is in fact what is happening and figure out how to treat it.  I hope I can get something to calm me down before we go to Chicago this weekend, being around Jake’s family and friends always makes me feel uneasy (although I love them!  For some reason I work myself into being nervous every time.)

SO, looks like I’m going crazy folks!  At least I’m working on looking good while doing it! 

… I made my mini goal this morning!!!!!  WHOOOO! 

Hi ladies!  It’s a beautiful day in the neighborhood today!  I woke up and weighed myself even though it’s one day before I’m supposed to and I am finally down to 145!  That was my mini goal! 

I practically floated out of the house to get to the gym and COULDN’T WAIT to get to work so I could log on, post, and update my weight tracker!

I’ve set a new mini goal of 140 pounds.  This one is a little scary since I can’t remember the last time I weighed that little.  It’s been probably years!  I know at least 5 years.  It took me 2 months and 2 weeks to get down to my first mini goal, and this next one can’t take that long! 

I have a wedding coming up people!!!

So, my plan is to meet my next mini goal in 3 weeks.  That will be Thursday, March 20.  You heard it here on my blog so now I have to do it! 

In other news, Texas is brimming with excitement over the upcoming primary on March 4th.  I have to get out and vote early today or tomorrow!  It’s kind of cool having the delegates here in Dallas.  Makes us feel important. 

Next weekend we are going to Chicago for Jake’s sister’s wedding.  I’m getting really excited about our trip and can’t wait to see everybody.  Not to mention, see Jacob in a tux.  YUMMY!  MMM I love that man!

OK now that I made you all want to barf, have a great day. :)  Over and out!  Reb

I tried updating my weight tracker but apparently when I entered 146.5 on Friday, it already changed to 146.  So it took a little excitement out of entering 146 today.  I am trying to weigh only on Fridays, but this morning I felt skinny and couldn’t resist.  I’m so glad I liked what I saw on the scale!  If it had gone up, I might have cried!  Instead, I smiled and put on a pair of pants I usually avoid b/c they are uncomfortable.  Today, still a bit tight but feeling much more cozy since my 4 recent pounds!

 I know, 1/2 pound isn’t much, but if the scale is moving in the right direction, I’m happy!  Go me!!

 Now, if I could just figure out how to get it to drop off of certain areas (FAT ARMS!!!!) sigh…. but hey, I’ll take it wherever I can get it!

 :)  Later taters!

Well good evening ladies!  You are looking skinnier, I think! :) 

Had  a great workout today.  I’m loving this Buff Brides program - I’m telling you, it’s awesome!  If you need help figuring out what to do in the gym, it maps everything out for you!  I was really in the zone and getting ready to go sit in the sauna at 8:00 p.m. when I heard the announcement that the gym would be closing in five minutes.  What???  I thought 24 Hour Fitness was um… open 24 hours?  Guess not.  Apparently I’m not very observant at 5:00 a.m. when I usually go

Last night was fun - I had the girls over for a Beauticontrol party and we had a spa night.  It was great to have people in the new house!  Feels like it’s actually mine now.  I did cheat a bit shhhh!  I had a few beers and some pasta salad and nibbled on brownie pieces and Milano cookies.  Oh well!  It was a party, after all.  I guess I get one cheat day a week.  That sounds like a good strategy!

 I had a bit more pasta salad today right before the gym too.  OOPS!  But I figure, a day is 24 hours, and that 24 hours of cheating was over at 7:00 p.m. today.  So here I sit, eating almonds for dinner and watching Forrest Gump.

OSCAR NIGHT!!! TOMORROW!  love it!!!  Seeing all the beautiful people in their formal gowns always makes me want to do sit ups

Night yall!

Hello everyone!  Gosh, it’s been a while, almost 2 months.  I find it hard to report a lack of progress or talk about my boring day to day life, so today, I come to you with exciting news!!  I have lost 3.5 pounds and am now down to 146.5 as of this morning!  I know weight fluctuates quite a bit from day to day, so I’ve decided not to weigh myself again until next week to avoid bone-crushing disappointment. 

 I think the weight loss has come from low-carbing it (I know, everyone has mixed feelings, but it’s the ONLY thing that has ever made my weight budge, even a little), exercise (Buff Brides program - ROCKS!  Even if you’re not a bride to be, AWESOME!) and lack of holiday treats everywhere I turn/family guests who express love with food in house.

 :) Yes, we moved into our new house in January and 3 short weeks later had a house full of noisy and fun relatives (his parents and mine, plus his aunt and uncle) who LOVE to cook and don’t understand nutrition, or care, I suppose.  SO, finally back to my routine and happy to be here!

It’s amazing how much skinnire I already feel, I feel like I look different even though I’m sure others wouldn’t notice, but I do!  Also, I had a milestone birthday - the big 3-0 on February 11th! 

 WOW, okay, next time I won’t wait so long and have so much to report.  But can I say a little cheer for myself!  3.5 pounds, the hardest part is getting started!  GO ME!!!!

I watched it!  It was riveting.  To think that those people can transform themselves so drastically in such a short period of time is amazing!  Very inspiring!  It made me think about the level of commitment it takes to achieve a goal like this - no matter how many pounds you have to lose - you really have to WANT it.  I feel energized and ready to hit the gym! 

Unfortunately I have to wait about a week because I had to go to the dermatologist yesterday - you can see from my pics that I have red hair and freckles… which makes the sun basically the most dangerous thing in the world for me.  AARGH!  Anyway I had to get a few freckles tested and I have little bandaids all over my belly that I’m not supposed to disturb with too much moving around or sweating.  It’s no big deal - just a hassle really.  That and the fact that it wasn’t covered by my insurance and I had to pay my deductible all in one day kinda sucked!

In other news, Jacob and I are closing on our house on the 28th!  I’m so excited and ready to start the next chapter of my life.  No gym nearby though…. I’m going to have to start working out before work!

Later taters!  Rebecca