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OK, I’m trying to stay on track but honestly in the last few weeks it’s been WAY off track and back to on track.  I fluctuate every few days.  Since the wedding, I have been struggling to find the motivation to continue on as fiercely as I was before.  The big event and the pressure of looking perfect was a serious incentive.  Now I lack that and I’ve had to go inside for motivation.

I did start a new workout program, since I graduated from Buff Brides.  (once again, Buff Brides ROCKS!)  So far this week I’m doing well and sticking to it, last week was a different story.  I let mysel have a few weeks off from dieting and working out, and then I kind of hit a point where I felt like I had to get it together. 

That point was hitting 140 again.  I didn’t track it b/c I was so discouraged… I’m now back down to 137, thank God!  But the point is, from my lowest - 135, to 140, was more than five pounds.  It was the next ten pound group!  That was scary.

So I whipped my a$$ into shape again and I’m trying.  I’m not as vigilant about eating veggies as I was before.  I’ve been eating quite a lot of “diet desserts” - SF pudding, SF Jello, SF fudge pops, basically anything that feels liks cheating and not much that is actually healthy.  I’m trying to be gentle with myself though… as this is better than gorgin on junk, and even if I won’t lose weight that way, at least I won’t gain any, either (I hope!)

So I’m hoping the workout routine will get me back in gear and back wanting the good stuff to eat. 

Meanwhile, I’m at 137 and now shooting for 125!!!   My mini goal for Friday is 136.  We’ll see!!

Thanks for listening, internet.  I hope I can get my mojo back!