rebecca1428

Hey everyone,

It’s been a while but my break is OVER!  I got married in June and the good news is, I was successful in losing almost 20 pounds for my wedding and got down to 135!  The bad news is I gained some back (not too much, but enough!)  I realized I really need this to hold me accountable, keep me motivated, and help me stay on track.

During my hiatus I tried Weight Watchers online and it didn’t work for me.  I have a real problem with willpower with certain foods (don’t we all?) which is why South Beach always worked for me.  When I decided to try something new, I loved Weight Watchers at first but the flexibility of eating ANYTHING you want in small portions was not a good thing for me.  I do better with a much more regimented plan with cheat days built in.

Anyway my WW experience taught me more about myself and I was just about to join South Beach Diet online for $65 when I realized there wasn’t anything SBD could offer me that this website can’t - for free!

So here I am.  I’m going back on my weight tracker to log in last week - 144 and this week - 141.5.  I’m going to stay here until I meet my goal of 127 pounds!  This is lower than I started with because I know I can do it now!  Before, I wasn’t even sure I could get down to 135 but I know it’s possible so the sky’s the limit. 

127 is a challenging but doable goal and that will be a weight where I know I can maintain between 125-130 and always feel very happy with my body.  And I love food too much to drop below that.

So, off I go!  Thanks for your support, then and now, and I’ll be in touch soon!

PS - currently struggling with giant tray of chocolate bonbons literally right outside my office cube… but I will stay STRONG!  (OK, I already ate 2 of them but that’s my limit! :))

OK, I’m trying to stay on track but honestly in the last few weeks it’s been WAY off track and back to on track.  I fluctuate every few days.  Since the wedding, I have been struggling to find the motivation to continue on as fiercely as I was before.  The big event and the pressure of looking perfect was a serious incentive.  Now I lack that and I’ve had to go inside for motivation.

I did start a new workout program, since I graduated from Buff Brides.  (once again, Buff Brides ROCKS!)  So far this week I’m doing well and sticking to it, last week was a different story.  I let mysel have a few weeks off from dieting and working out, and then I kind of hit a point where I felt like I had to get it together. 

That point was hitting 140 again.  I didn’t track it b/c I was so discouraged… I’m now back down to 137, thank God!  But the point is, from my lowest - 135, to 140, was more than five pounds.  It was the next ten pound group!  That was scary.

So I whipped my a$$ into shape again and I’m trying.  I’m not as vigilant about eating veggies as I was before.  I’ve been eating quite a lot of “diet desserts” - SF pudding, SF Jello, SF fudge pops, basically anything that feels liks cheating and not much that is actually healthy.  I’m trying to be gentle with myself though… as this is better than gorgin on junk, and even if I won’t lose weight that way, at least I won’t gain any, either (I hope!)

So I’m hoping the workout routine will get me back in gear and back wanting the good stuff to eat. 

Meanwhile, I’m at 137 and now shooting for 125!!!   My mini goal for Friday is 136.  We’ll see!!

Thanks for listening, internet.  I hope I can get my mojo back!

Hey everybody!  I’m so happy to be back after a short hiatus.  I have been busy getting married here in TX and honeymooning in Cabo San Lucas!  We had a great time.  I will post a few pics on here when I get the chance!

Back home, back to work, and back to the diet and exercise routine.  I’m happy to report that I got down to 134.5 for my wedding - an incredible feat for me!  Unfortunately (but not surprisingly) I gained 4 pounds during the week and a half I took “off” for my wedding and honeymoon.  I’m not disappointed at all, actually… I was worried I would have gained more - and this is not much more than my weight usually fluctuates from time to time, even during the losing process.

BUT I’m determined that it stop there, and I am now renewed in my determination to drop those last few pounds!  My last posted mini-goal was 132… and that’s where I will keep my sights set for now.  Once I get there I will reevaluate and determine where I want to go! 

But the big picture is, I lost a considerable amount of weight for my wedding and for the first time in my adult life was 100% happy with the way I looked in my pictures - no fat arms, and I could even see….  (gasp!) my collarbone!  I felt so happy when I saw what a difference these small little changes made in my appearance and the way I feel about myself.

So I’m ready to create a new goal for myself - the wedding is over and the goal for my weight loss is now for life, not for a specific event.  I hope this will continue to be a happy and successful journey for me and wish the same for all of you!

Happy Dieting!  From the new Mrs.

Forgot to add to my last post - I have set my new mini-goal at (gulp!) 132.  4 pounds away, but probably the hardest 4 pounds yet!  If I can reach that before the wedding, I will be ecstatic!!! Wish me luck and lots of celery

ME???  No, not since 2003, I don’t think.  I’m amazed!  I did one of those quick jumps on and off the scale this morning - as soon as I saw the number I freaked out!!  (in a good way)  WHOOOOEEE!  Another thing I noticed - I’m not as hungry anymore.  My appetite has really slowed down.  I can get by not eating much (although I still make myself eat snacks every few hours) i just noticed it takes a lot less to satisfy me, yet I still have energy.  I think my stomach is shrinking, or maybe it’s my blood sugar, I don’t know.  Science is mystifying.

In other news, I had my bridal portrait taken over the weekend and also attended a bachelorette party (not mine, a friend’s!) so it was bridealicious weekend.  Can’t wait to see the proofs from my portrait!  I’m thinking I’m happy with my weight now.. I would love to still get down to 130 if I can, before the wedding, but at this point I’m happy just maintaining.  That doesn’t mean I’m going to stop trying though!

There are so many things I’m loving about this new me - clothes fit better, (… actually some are too big now!  I’m going to have to do some shopping after the wedding), confidence is up, I tried on my bikinis for the honeymoon and actually didn’t feel self conscious, I’m more accepting of my flaws now (even my stubborn areas don’t bother me so much anymore), I have more energy, feel more positive in general… and most importantly, I’m realizing that I can achieve a goal that I thought was impossible.  That is the coolest thing of all! 

And I can’t tell you the joy it brings me when someone notices, or when my fiance looks at me or touches me and says “WOW you are so fit!!!”  it’s priceless.  :)  Of course, he thought I was irresistable when I was heavier too so god bless him. 

25 days till the wedding!

Helllloooo everyone in buddyslimland!  :)  I weighed in at 138 this morning… down 1/2 pound… I’ll take it!

But that’s not all that has me feeling especially happy today.  As anyone else planning a wedding knows (or if you remember, those of you who have been through it already), it can be overwhelming and very stressful.  I have spent the last few months totally immersed in wedding stuff and self-absorbed…. well just focused on myown life I suppose, because there was so much to focus on!  Well, I don’t know if it was checking things off the list, or the official start of May (my wedding is next month!!!!  I can finally say that!!!!) but I have officially chilled…. out.

It feels great.  I just have a new perspective, and it’s more of a big picture perspective.  Focusing on all the details was exhausting, but necessary, and I’m glad I did it, but I’m done now!  I’m ready to coast through the last month in happiness and anticipation.  I can’t believe how lucky I am to be marrying the man of my dreams.  I can’t believe how blessed we are to have such wonderful family and friends, who are all coming here because of us… I’m just so happy!  And, I’m also REEEaLLLy looking forward to our honeymoon, and the blissful peaceful days of newlywededness ahead.  I’m ready to be relaxed and even a little bored… at least for a few weeks

SOOO there you have it.  I’m feeling great!  I have a new attitude.  I’m happy and looking forward to all the wonderful things that lie ahead.

Oh, and it’s FRIDAY!!!!

Hey everybody - well, I weighed in on Friday again and I’m the same, at 138.5… which is great!  I had a little carb binge yesterday though, nothing too out of control, mostly rice cakes and unsalted saltines… so I expected to be a little bloated today, but instead, I’ve had 3 people at work (no, 4 actually!) comment on how much weight I’ve lost!  One said, “Wow, you are looking really thin!” Another said, “My goodness, you are losing weight huh?” and when I said yes, I still have 10 pounds to go, she said “From where???”  and then in the break room someone said “You look like you are going to blow away!”

Now, I’m not sure if that means I’ve lost more?  I didn’t weigh today, but I certainly feel thinner… plus, I’m wearing my minimizing bra which I think makes me look about 10 pounds thinner right there!  Big boobs can be deceiving!!! anyway I guess I have mixed feelings - altought it is certainly being noticed, I’m beginning to wonder if I should stop here even though I’m not at my goal?  Some of those comments weren’t exactly compliments after all, more like just exclamations… i’m not sure if that’s the reaction I was going for :)  And anyway, I’m FAR from underweight, still.  Maybe they were just commenting onthe difference from before…   I don’t know!  And, I wonder if stress is causing more weight loss?  I have been freaking out lately… 

I was just reflecting on this idea this morning after I weighed in (still 139 pounds, hope to be 138 tomorrow!  Or at least 138.5 :)  )…  When I started this, I weighed just over 150 pounds and I thought that was my body’s “Natural” weight - overweight, yes, but not obese, and it was the weight where I’d been stuck for several years…  The thought of weighing 125 was ridiculous….  130 was out of the question…. 135 was near impossible… 140 would be way more trouble than it was worth…. I was happy to get down to 145.  Now, I’m at 139 and my whole perspective has shifted! 

I know for sure now that 135 isn’t impossible!  In fact, it’s so close I can taste it!  (OK, bad choice of words :)  )  130 even seems within reach… after all, I’ve already lost more weight than I have to go and all it took was determination, discipline, but most of all PATIENCE!!!  I think the 2 things that have gotten me this far are patience and focusing on my goal.

I ran my first marathon last year (yes, at my heavier weight!) and that was a goal I never thought I would achieve!  But once I started training and improving, I realized it was possible, and I did it.  That experience was life-changing for me, because it proved to me in a very real way that anything is possible if you believe it!  I truly believe now that the only barrier to most things in life is the mind. 

So, I’m re-committed, redetermined, and ready to go.  I can SEE myself weighing 130…. and who knows, maybe even 125 in the near future.  All I need to do is keep my goal in the forefront of my mind and be PATIENT!!  I know it will happen!

So anyone out there who is struggling with weight loss and wondering if you can do it, YOU CAN!!  Just push all doubts out of your mind and stay the course!  We can do this!!!!

Am I in some sort of alternate reality?  Did I dream my weigh in this morning? 

:):):):):):):)  I’m so motivated to continue now - I know I can get down to 130!  I’m 2 pounds away from my next mini goal.  :):):):):):):)

That’s all folks!!  :):):):):):)

Hey everybody!  If I wasn’t so tired I’d be really really excited to report that I stepped on the scale this morning and am now 140.5!!  I added to my tracker, which doesn’t take .5 pounds, and rounded to 140, which is my mini-goal!!  I know it was only a half pound, but after an agonizing few weeks of going up from and back down to 141, I’m SO excited that I have broken that barrier!  I’m hoping a good cardio workout today, tomorrow, and Friday will push my weighin down to 140 or even 139 by the weekend!  YAY!

I can’t remember the last time I weighed less than 141.  This is truly a big deal!  And if I can get in the 130s - well, I know for sure that I haven’t weighed that since 2002 - 2003 - so 5 or 6 years!!!

I set a new mini-goal of 137.  I know that’s a really small step but my body is telling me that my weight loss is going to be much slower and more difficult from this point on as I approach my goal weight.  So I have to rearrange my thought process to fractions of pounds instead of pounds.  From here on out I’m sure will be the most difficult part, so I hope I can focus and stay determined!!

The good news is that I’ve been dieting so long that it doesn’t bother me anymore… so that’s a positive.

In other news, my wedding is 50 days away!  Can I at least get down to 135 by then?  We’ll see, but I have to kick it into high gear for sure!!!  As the wedding approaches it is getting harder and harder to sleep at night too, so I’ve had to start using half a Xanax before bed to relax my nerves a bit.  I’m not worried about it since I know this is situational stress…. and I read somewhere that one of the keys to weight loss is getting plenty of good rest, because the body repairs itself and muscles grow during sleep.. so I will make getting enough water and rest a definite priority as well.

OK, so there is my plan!  Thanks for all your support ladies, and I look forward to  a good weigh in for the Heartbreakers this weekend!

YAY!!!